It's taken me a little while to get around to blogging from Spain because I've been a little, erm, stressed. I know it's crazy given that we're in a villa in on a mountainside in Andalucia and the sun shining, and we're used to travelling from place to place with the boys. So why the stress? Well, we knew the villa was on top of a hill, but it's some hill. A small mountain, with an unrelentingly steep gradient, almost impossible to walk down with a pushchair and totally impossible to walk up with a three year old and a pushchair. So we've hired a car for six weeks.
So, why the stress? Mostly because I haven't really driven for over eight years. Even in my car-owning days I was a very nervous driver. I don't like driving and I don't really even like being in cars. Anyone who has driven with me as a passenger will know how uptight I am even when I'm not behind the wheel. Ollie, a marginally better driver than me, doesn't know where his driving license is, so if we were going to get up and down this hill, it was down to me.
So with that background, I had to drive out of the hire car parking space in a left-hand drive, on the right side of the road, and face the mountain roads up to the villa. That's hairpin bend one after another, one of which keeps me awake at night as I see myself taking the corner slightly too wide and us plunging off the side down the cliff escarpment. Doubly worse nightmare as I have Sethie and Bo in the back.
They say the way to deal with your fears is to tackle them, to do the very things you most fear. If that's the case, six weeks of driving in Andalucia and I should be able to close the door on this ridiculous phobia. Today we drove into the Sierra Nevada, the beautiful mountain range nestled up to the south eastern coast of Spain. This involved taking the fast, winding road around the high cliffs around the coast, then onto the motorway towards Granada crossing several super high, long bridges (even worse than hairpin bends) and flyovers, and then of course the winding roads up into the sierras. Two hours there, two hours back, and I was a nervous wreck every driving moment. We did make it back in one piece, but I don't feel any braver for the experience. I googled fear of driving, panic attacks while driving, and it seems there are plenty more nutters likes me out there with irrational fears, especially on motorways and high bridges over water. Not that that makes me feel any better.
So I haven't felt much like blogging. When I'm out of the car, at point A or B, playing with boys in the garden or the beach, up in the mountains together or watching the sunset over the valley, it's wonderful here, but I always have this lurking and ludicrous fear of making it around that corner. Oh, another thing, and for the sake of our marriage we've decided to take the bus to Granada next weekend!!